I've been doing a pretty good job of watching what I eat. I've been doing an "okay" job of getting exercise. I guess from my perspective any concerted effort to get any exercise is better than the complete LACK of that I was previously getting. It's like Lizzy used to tell us (a dietician at work who gave us a 6 week brown bag series on nutrition)...it's about making better choices.
So I've been trying to get out and walk for fifteen minutes every day at work, but I haven't been as diligent at home. I'm not beating myself up about it, I'm still eating much better, and I'm focusing on doing things that help my overall mental health, so if I don't get a walk/run in on the treadmill it's not the end of the world.
One of the things I've been doing is sampling vegetarian food choices. I'm not going vegetarian or plant-based, or whatever...at least not yet...but I'm just seeing what the dark side has to offer. Since 90% of my dining is Asian, it's amazingly simple to just make the meat disappear and still have a great entree. Other things I'm doing is attempting to limit my portion sizes to something more...reasonable. I can eat a dinner sized portion of Hunan chicken, but really it's probably three full servings worth of food. So I'm trying to just cut it in half and ask for a doggy bag for the other half so I'm not tempted.
I'm back where I was when my pants stopped fitting three weeks ago. So now that I lost the six pounds I gained without even realizing it...and since I'm already in eat right and exercise mode...I'm going for the next five. I think ten more total and I'll be content, but for now I'm taking it five at a time.
Myfitnesspal is limiting me to 1,750 calories today, which is actually not that big a deal to maintain, although I do find myself having to talk myself down from grabbing a snack out of the pantry, or at the very least, forcing myself to log that information into the app so that I can see how much damage I'm doing. In some cases I end up going to bed with a little cushion (not literally, though I do use a pillow), in some cases I'll treat myself to a little something just shy of the goal limit, and in other cases I'll go a little over.
We went to visit my folks last week and mom made steak and brussels sprouts in a cheese sauce, and served wine...and then finished with a chocolate chocolate chip cookie sandwich with fucking marshmallow fluff in between. So yeah. Kind of hard to ALWAYS stay under budget.
Stress is less, I think. Lily is still in the throes of some sort of metamorphosis that is not always super pleasant (like getting spit on or bitten, for example) but she's pretty happy and easy for the most part.
Emma is more focused at school lately and I'm seeing her grades reflect that, and I've found there's an inversely proportional relationship between her grades and my stress level that has probably been my biggest single source of stress these past six months...yes...autism/money/election included.
My big "project" is done, and I'm eager to show you all what I was working on, but I can't until the recipient receives it, lest I ruin the surprise. Now I have to pick some new thing to focus my creative energies on. Room remodel? Lamp project? Drawing for Emma?
I like my new foci, and I feel like they're helping me steer the boat.
Life is feeling good right now and I'd be smelling the roses if I hadn't contracted some sort of cold/flu from Lily and gotten a stuffy nose. And I'm out of tissues at work.